it hase been a while since I work on this space. to be frankly sepaking, actually time does not goes well with me. After started my new life earlier this year, the workload just getting bigger. Last week I even don’t have any rest day off. Started from last monday, until this monday, not a single day to rest. Working until late night, some can go to 10pm and training during the weekend, that just my routine every week. Who have time to even himself when they need to work like that?
|at london? in your dream :D|
I remember on sunday, when I started my new shift which required to come on sunday. there is no enthusiasm at all to work. When I walk back and forth around the company, I barely keep my heads up. I was staring down on the floor, not having a great mood. even other ask why I not really speak with them. A 7 days a week without rest, yes. that is my answer to them.
Tired body really make someone suffer. Last sunday, I made a mistake for urgent product. When I told my boss, he said that things always happened when you are tired.
I also made a foolish statement. As you aware, every words spoken cannot be undone. Once it done, its done. that’s it. no turning back for you. you can apologize, but the damage is already there. macam pepatah melayu “terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata, buruk padahnya”.
Nevertheless life must goes on. and today, some of the thing just getting better. The moral is up. No more staring at the floor while working. The smile on the face start to grow again. When having you smile at someone, and that person replies back with the same gesture, it can change your day slightly better. But still, actually really miss the smile that I haven't seen for a while. I really love the smile,and the stuttering. Its very cute actually. Really miss that one. Really.